Today was one of those days where I miss the ease of going out for coffee with Gideon sleeping peacefully in the sling. Waking up only to nurse and then go back to sleep. Now Gideon wants "tawtee", he wants down, he wants up, he wants to point and yell "Go bike!" at every passing cyclist, he wants to talk to all the other people in the coffee shop who are trying to ignore him. I want there to be a mommy coffee shop where I can get my espresso frappuccino and sit down for a few minutes without living in fear of nasty looks from hipsters. Starbucks drive-thru it is.
Disclaimer: I'm about to talk about preggo stuff like giant bras and having to pee.
I HAD to buy a new bra today. As in, it was inappropriate for me to wear my too-small (but still ginormous) bra for one more day. Gideon missed his nap and cried/whined basically the whole time I was trying stuff on. He laid on the floor in front of the fitting room door crying "Mama! Go! Car! Go HOME!" Thankfully, Macy's has fitting room doors that go all the way down to the floor so there was no way for him to crawl out because I was too tired/fat to chase him around make him behave. I really, really wish I could just buy my bras at target where they are cheap, there are carts in which to strap my son, and I don't feel like the filthy rich old lady in the stall next to me is conspiring to ruin my life for bringing my son into the unmentionables section. But no, they do not carry my current ridiculous pregnancy size.
I made a mommy mistake in that I did not bring the stroller with us - it simply did not occur to me when I left the house. But let me tell you, IT WAS OCCURRING TO ME THE WHOLE TIME I WAS RUNNING THROUGH THE MALL TO FIND A BATHROOM WHILE TRYING TO CARRY A SOBBING AND POOPY 30 POUND TODDLER! Have you ever tried carrying a 30 pound crying toddler while 8 months pregnant, wearing a floor length skirt that keeps sliding down (another mommy mistake) and all the while having to pee so badly you're secretly wondering if you'll ever be able walk standing up straight again?
I'm not sure where I went wrong this afternoon. It might have been waiting this long to get a new bra so I had to go to the mall by myself with Gideon. It might have been when I went to a house showing instead of taking Gideon home for a nap. It might have been not stopping to pee sooner. It might have been not turning around when I realized I forgot the stroller, or when I went to take Gideon out of the car seat and he started bawling, or while I was carrying him through the mall and my skirt was falling down. However it happened, I left Macy's $50 poorer with a bra so big it shouldn't exist.
It had better last these last six weeks of my pregnancy because even if they make a bigger sized bra than the one I just bought (doubtful), I am NOT taking Gideon to the mall by myself again for a long, long time.
This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. - Psalm 118:24